Copyright © Tina M. Kukla, 2000. This work
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Days in the Life
It was nearly one
o'clock by the time I finally opened my eyes the next day; I'd been totally
drained of my energy from the night before, so I'd slept soundly. I expected
Paul to be sleeping cozily right next to me in bed with both hands tucked under
his pillow and his feet sticking out from underneath the sheet at the edge of
the bed like he always slept, but he was nowhere to be seen. I rolled over,
propping myself up on my arm and said, "Paul?" just loud enough so
he'd hear me if he were in the bathroom or something. No answer.
"Hmm,"
I said, pulling my robe around me and yawning. I took a nice long shower after
I got up, just letting the steam from the hot water fill up the bathroom in a
misty haze and fogging up the mirror, then stepped out of the shower stall and
combed through my hair. My hair had grown pretty damn fast since I'd gotten it
cut to shoulder-length at the beginning of May; it was already back to its
original length down to the middle of my shoulder blades. My bangs needed a
trim, though; they were getting to the point where they were growing beyond my
eyebrows and tickling the very top of my eyelids. I didn't want to chance doing
it myself, though if they kept driving me nuts before I could get home and go
to Angela's Beauty Box to get them trimmed, I'd be at the point of wanting to
grab a pair of gardening shears and hacking them off.
Once I stepped
out of the haze-filled bathroom, dressed properly in my pink mini skirt and a
sleeveless knit top, I opened the curtains keeping the daylight out of the room
and took a peek out the window. Just below me on the patio, I saw John and Paul
sitting at one of the picnic tables, a mess of notebook paper strewn into piles
all across the table. John had his acoustic guitar with, and he would pluck out
a few notes, then scribble something down on the paper in front of him, so I
safely assumed that they were working on a song together. After a couple
minutes of watching them through the glass pane, I opened the window and
listened to them. John shifted in his seat on one of the benches, adjusted one
of the strings on the guitar, and began to sing softly.
"Let me take
you down, 'cause I'm go-ing to…Straw-ber-ry Fields…Noth-ing is real…and
noth-ing to get hung-a-bout…Straw-ber-ry Fie-lds For-ev-ah."
"Not bad at
all," Paul said, tapping the ash from the end of his cigarette into the
gold ashtray in front of him at the table. "We've got to show these to
George when we get back to EMI and see what he can make of 'em."
I smiled,
choosing then to alert them to my presence. "Another hit single?" I
commented, leaning out of the window with crossed arms. They both looked up at
me, startled that they'd had an audience.
"Perhaps,"
Paul remarked, "though right now I doubt we'd get a penny playing the
songs on a street corner. We'll have George Martin wave his magic wand and
transform them into something tolerable when we get back home."
"George
Martin?" I asked.
"Our
producer."
"Oh, that's
right," I said. "Hey, I'll be down in a minute, okay? I don't feel
like yelling over the rooftops here."
John nodded, and
I slid the window closed, locking it securely before heading down the staircase
and out the patio doors into the fresh air. Paul was grinding out his cigarette
and pocketing the rest before John could snatch one from him as I stepped out
the patio doorway.
"He's
brilliant," Paul said, continuing straight on with the conversation we'd
started earlier when I was shouting like Juliet from her window above.
"He's the one that suggested strings for 'Yesterday'…and he played the
piano part on 'Hard Day's Night.'"
"So…he's
sort of the Fifth Beatle, huh?" I laughed, sitting next to him on the
bench.
John nodded,
tapping the side of the guitar with the palm of his hand. "In a way,
yeah…you know, there were five Beatles at one point. Before Paul picked up the
bass, one of me pals from art college, Stu Sutcliffe, played it."
"Not very
well, I might add," Paul murmured in a sing-songy voice, avoiding John's
gaze as he stacked up the lyric sheets on the table.
John either chose
to ignore Paul's little comment or he just didn't hear it, since I didn't see any
kind of visible reaction from him.
"What
happened to him?" I asked. "Did he quit?"
"He
died," John said bluntly. John certainly was never one for subtleties.
"He stayed in Hamburg to marry this fab Exi bird-Astrid-that we all
knew…but he had a brain hemorrhage and died a day before we came back to
Germany for another set of shows in town."
"Oh…I'm
sorry."
I glanced over at
Paul, who decided to change the subject after finally receiving a dirty look
from John. "And then there was Pete Best, our drummer."
"I've heard
about him," I remarked. "But why did you guys fire Pete? Wasn't he
the most popular member of the group at a time?"
"Aye, well,
your little Paulie there got jealous because Pete pulled all the birds and left
him with none," John said, making a face at Paul that just said
"so-THERE!"
Paul frowned,
then rolled his eyes; John stared straight on at him, drumming his fingers
loudly on the side of the guitar. "No, that's not the story," Paul
continued. "He wasn't a great drummer. George Martin was none too
impressed with him at our audition for EMI four years ago, so we ended up
giving him the boot and letting Ringo join the band for the recording
session."
"Not for
that first session," John sniffed, stopping his irritating drumming.
"He doesn't play on 'Love Me Do'; that was some bleedin' session drummer
that George Martin insisted on having play on the record instead."
Paul was about to
reply, but before he could get the words out of his mouth, we heard Ringo
shout, "Hey, you all are on Candid Camera!"
Paul and I turned
to see Ringo holding a whirring Super-8 camera up, filming us. "Hello,
kiddies," he laughed, waving as he made sure to hold the camera steady.
John dropped his
cranky attitude within about two seconds and leaped from his seat, standing
right in front of Ringo and pulling faces for the camera. Paul giggled,
grabbing me by my wrists and pulling me to my feet to start spinning around in
an out-of-control version of Ring-around-the-Rosy.
"Hey,
Paul!" I shouted as we veered nearer and nearer to the edge of the pool. I
looked at the glasslike surface of the still water every half a second as I
spun within view of it. Hmm…let's put on a show for the camera! I thought,
grinning devilishly. Besides, I still had to get even with him and the others
for pulling that stunt the other day where they dumped me into the pool.
"What?"
he replied as the world around us became a blur as he spun me faster and
faster…and we neared the edge of the pool more and more…
"What if I
let go…right about-NOW!" I shouted, letting go of his hands at the precise
moment his back was to the pool. He flew backwards before he even knew what was
happening, sending a splash of water out of the pool that reached my feet even
after I'd taken a wide step backwards to avoid any fallout from my actions.
Paul kicked his way back to the surface of the water only to find me grinning
fiendishly, standing with the toe of my shoes just barely hanging over the edge
of the pool. John and Ringo were in hysterics at the other end of the patio;
Ringo snapped off the camera and fell to his knees, laughing so hard that I
thought he was going to wet his pants!
"You are
dead, Lauren Ashley Donaldson!" Paul shouted, half-laughing as he cut
across the water with his hand, trying his damnedest to soak me as I backed
quickly away from the pool. After a few more futile attempts to soak me as
well, he climbed out of the pool dripping wet, and John approached him with a
fiendish grin on his face.
"Well,
Macca, a cold bath was just the thing you needed…you made Laurie wake up the
whole lot of us last night!" John laughed, slapping him on the back.
Paul was trying
to squeeze some of the excess water out of his shirtsleeves. "Oh, for
hell's sake, John," he muttered, making a face as he walked for the patio
door, his soaked tennis shoes making that squishy sloshing noise with each
step. He looked up from studying his noisy shoes and saw that Ringo had started
filming with the Super-8-then proceeded to make a rather ungentlemanly gesture
just out of the camera's range of focus as he passed by into the house. Neil
was just on his way outside to join us and nearly ran into Paul as he stormed
inside.
"Hey, behave
yourself or I'll tell your mother of ya," Neil laughed, then surveyed the
path of wet footprints a drenched Paul had left behind. "All right, John;
why'd you give him a shove?"
John's eyes went
wide. "It wasn't me!" he cried. "Laurie did it!"
Neil made a face,
glancing over at me, then back at John. "Come off it; Laurie hasn't the
strength to push one of you in."
"Aye, but
she did, I tell you," John replied. "She was twirling 'round with
Paul and she let go of his hands at just the right second and sploosh! He was
in the water."
Neil looked at me
sternly; for a minute I thought he was genuinely upset with my actions, but
after a moment he broke into a smile and said, "What a thing to do, young
lady, when we've got guests coming."
"Guests?"
I asked. "Anna isn't due here until-"
"I know
that, but there's others coming here as well, you know," Neil said as
Ringo handed him back the camera. "Derek Taylor and his wife are due here
at any moment."
"Who's Derek
Taylor?" I asked John as Neil and Ringo started talking about something to
do with the camera not working properly or running out of film or something.
"He used to
be an assistant to Brian, but they had their differences and Derek moved here
to the States," John replied. "He lives not too far from here and
decided to drop in on us and pay a visit while we're here."
"Oh," I
said, watching as John picked up his guitar and the song sheets and brought
them inside the house. I was left alone on the patio for about two minutes
before Paul re-emerged from the house; he'd towel-dried his hair as much as he
could and he'd changed into dark blue jeans and a black t-shirt, looking very
much as if he'd stepped straight off the movie screen in Help! He didn't have
much to say to me right away except, "David Crosby got here while I was
inside."
"Huh?"
I said. "You mean the David Crosby-the guy from the Byrds?"
Paul nodded.
"Yeh…he and Ringo are going to go shoot a game of billiards in the game
room," he said nonchalantly. "Want me to go introduce you?"
I nodded, and he
held out his hand to me and smiled; I guessed that he'd developed a sense of
humor while he'd changed out of his wet clothes and had forgiven me for my
actions. I took his hand and followed him into the house and down the hallway
to the game room. Sure enough, there were Ringo, John, and David Crosby setting
up the balls on the green felt-covered pool table; they all looked up when we
stepped into the doorway to watch them.
"Hello,
Paul," David said, smiling politely. He looked exactly like he did on TV,
with the same haircut the Beatles wore. "And who's this pretty lady you've
got with you?"
"This is
Laurie Donaldson from Chicago," Paul said. "She's a good friend of
ours; we stayed at her house last January…and we decided to return the favor by
bringing her with for the tour."
"Oh; it's
very nice to meet you, Laurie," David said, shaking my hand. "Care to
play pool with us? We can play in teams of three; George is going to join us in
a moment."
Paul said,
"Sure; sounds great," but I shook my head.
"I haven't
played pool in about five years, Paul," I whispered to him. "I used
to play it at my Uncle Jack's house until they lost their pool table in a flood
a few years back… I'm going to be terrible at it."
Paul crossed his
arms and gave me a look. "And what makes you think that John is going to
work miracles without his glasses on? You remember how he did on miniature golf
by your house…"
I hid a laugh as
John stood up straight after making the first shot, barely clipping the ball at
the left edge of the triangle formation at the opposite end of the table.
"Yeah, I know, I bloody know," he muttered, standing aside.
"Your shot, Dave."
While David and
Ringo took their shots, I selected one of the cue sticks from the rack on the
wall and chalked up the tip of it with one of those messy blue chalk cubes
resting on the top of the rack, then rejoined the group, standing next to Paul
as he took his shot. He managed to sink one of the striped balls into the
corner pocket, then moved around to the other side of the table to take a shot
at the blue-striped ball near one of the center pockets. The eight ball was
right in the pathway to the blue striped one… but if you could pull off one of
those tricks where you hit the ball and made it jump over the eight ball, it
just might work.
"Watch this-trick
shot," he murmured, lining up the shot. He drew the cue back and-smack!
The cue ball went leaping over the eight ball, rolled towards the blue stripe,
and tapped it just enough to roll it into the pocket with a thud.
George had
reappeared in the room just in time to see Paul's shot. "Showing off in
front of your girlfriend again, eh?" he said, opening the bottle of Coke
he'd retrieved from the kitchen.
David blinked a
few times. "She's your girlfriend?" he asked Paul as George set the
Coke bottle down and surveyed the pool table, looking for an easy shot at a
solid-colored ball.
Paul nodded,
putting a finger against his lips. "Sssh…don't tell anyone," he
laughed, whispering just loud enough so we could hear him. He took his second
shot at the red-stripe but missed it by a mile.
"Ah… it was
a difficult shot, anyways," Paul said, sitting down on one of the benches
surrounding the table. "Your turn, George."
George did quite
well, getting the green solid into the corner pocket on an easy shot, then just
barely missing a shot at the red solid one. "Who's next?"
John jerked his
thumb at me. "Laurie is," he said quickly.
"O-kay…but
I'm probably going to mess up the game in one shot," I said, looking at
the table. Oh, great; George had left me with practically no shot at anything.
I was going to have to make some kind of freak shot at something and pray to
God that it get somewhere near my target!
"Come on,
Laurie, luv," John said, poking me in the shoulder with the un-chalked end
of his pool cue. "We had to play your little golfing game at home-now you
try this."
I sighed, leaning
over and lining up my shot. I had no choice but to try for the yellow stripe
that was all the way across the table from the cue ball; even if I were closer
it would still be a difficult shot from the way the ball was angled away from
the pocket.
"Oh
well…here goes the game," I sighed, drawing the cue back and smacking the
cue ball with the tip. The white ball flew across the table, bounced off of the
side of the yellow stripe, rolled towards the purple stripe about three feet
away from it…and tapped it hard enough to send it rolling into one of the
corner pockets. I gasped in total amazement, and Paul clapped his hands lightly
for about five seconds as I listened to the ball roll through the little
tunnels inside the table and into the tray at the far end of the table.
John threw his
hands up, and Ringo said, "Oh-ho! So you're no good at this game, eh,
Laurie?"
"She's
Minnesota Fats' daughter, Dave," John said. "Maybe we should have
told you that before we started the game."
David laughed as
I took my next shot at another stripe far across the table. So much for my
lucky streak-I missed that one by a mile. Shrugging, I sat next to Paul as John
looked for a good shot on the table. "Oh well; it was bound to
happen."
Paul frowned and
leaned close to my ear to whisper to me, "Cor, luv, you'd better watch how
far you're leaning over to make a shot-I could see to high heaven past the edge
of your skirt."
My face crimsoned
immediately; in my nervous streak I'd forgotten just how to maneuver myself so
that nothing past my mid-thigh would show when I moved around. "Oh god…did
anyone else-"
He shook his
head. "Not that I noticed…unless they just weren't letting on that they
saw."
"Eh? Saw
what?" John said after making his shot and missing terribly.
"Nothing,"
Paul said with a wave of his hand.
"Oh, are you
talking about how we got a glimpse of her knickers when she took her
shot?" John laughed along with George and Ringo.
I gasped, then
nearly spun around to smack Paul as he started laughing. "Hey!" I
said. "Whatever happened to defending the woman you love?"
"What can I
say?" Paul replied, still giggling. "Serves you right for shoving me
into the pool."
Before I could
give him a very snotty retort, Neil stuck his head into the room and said,
"Laurie, your friend Anna is here."
I grinned.
"Thanks, Neil," I said, then raced out of the room and headed for the
foyer where Anna was waiting patiently, looking at the paintings of birds
hanging near the doorway. She looked like she'd just gotten back from a
shopping spree on Rodeo Drive; she was wearing a gorgeous light pink A-line
dress with a short jacket edged with matching black trim.
"Wow!"
I said to her even before greeting her. "I love that dress-where did you
find it?"
"At one of
the boutiques near my aunt's house," she said, turning around so I could
see the whole outfit. "It was my one big splurge today…plus the
shoes."
I looked down at
her pointy pink Mary Janes. "Ouch! Those things look narrow! Aren't they
pinching your feet?"
She shook her
head, clutching her black patent-leather purse between her hands. "Nah-I
have skinny feet; they're fine…so, how's my George?"
"Perfectly
fine," I remarked. "He and the others are playing pool in the other
room."
"Well…this
is quite a house," Anna said as we started heading slowly towards the game
room. "My aunt's house is probably about half the size of this
joint."
"Hey, I
think we all deserve it after smushing ourselves into hotel rooms for two
weeks," I replied. "You wouldn't believe the pile of soaps and
shampoos I've collected since we started the tour; we've been to so many
hotels…"
"Hmph; must
be nice being trapped in a hotel room with those four for three weeks,"
she smirked evilly, elbowing me in the arm. "Eh, Laur?"
"Oh, knock
it off. You're starting to sound more and more like Cheryl," I scoffed,
leading her towards the game room where the billiards game had progressed quite
a bit during my absence. Paul and George were taking their shots at the eight
ball, the only ball left on the table.
"Don't let
them con you into playing a game with them," I whispered, grinning.
"They're crack shots at this game, believe it or not."
Paul was the
first one to look over and greet Anna. "Hello, Anna," he said with a
quick wave before looking for his next shot on the table.
"Hi,
everyone," Anna said, her voice quavering a little bit. "It's nice to
see all of you again."
Anna and I
watched the guys finish their game of pool-George ended up making the winning
shot-and at that point Anna noticed that David Crosby was another guest of
theirs that day. "Laurie, is that who I think it is?" she whispered
to me as the others congratulated George.
I nodded.
"All sorts of interesting folks coming and going in these parts," I
smiled as Paul approached us. He leaned forward and gave me a quick kiss on the
forehead before setting the cue stick in the storage rack behind me. Naturally
Anna pretty much went wide-eyed and could barely keep herself contained before
we had a moment where she could whisper to me without the others hearing.
"What was
that?" she said.
I didn't want to
start discussing all that right then and there in front of everyone, so I
motioned for her to follow me to the hallway, and we quietly slipped out of the
room without anyone taking much notice or asking us where we were off to. Once
we were far enough down the hallway and heading for the stairs, I said, "I
just wanted to get out of there so we don't have to talk in front of
them."
We dashed
upstairs to the bedroom that Paul and I shared, and I closed the door quickly.
Anna had her hands on her hips, giving me a very shocked look. "Well,
well, well… I do believe you owe me a semester's worth of college tuition, Miss
Donaldson. Remember our little bet?"
"Yeah, yeah,
whatever," I scoffed. "Listen, I don't want you blabbing this to
anyone-"
"Laurie, who
am I going to tell? Cheryl?" she replied. "Like anyone else would
believe me…so, what's the deal?"
"Well,"
I began, arranging my hairbrush and mirror into a straight line on the dresser
next to me, "I don't know how to begin this."
"Did you
sleep with him?" Anna pressed.
Jeez, Anna;
thanks for the breathing room! I thought, frowning at her. Talk about anxious
for information!
I shrugged, and
just from that, she knew what the answer was, for she became absolutely
speechless for about twenty seconds. "Are you kidding me?" she said
slowly.
I shook my head.
"Nuh-uh."
"Ho-ly…shhhit,"
she sputtered, unable to think of anything intelligble to say. "I… oh,
dear…"
"What?"
I laughed, trying to make her feel more comfortable. "Has my face gone
green or something?"
"No, of
course not!" she laughed. "But…why? How?"
"Well, to
tell you the truth…it just sort of happened one night. We'd had a couple of
really rough days on the tour-that whole deal in Memphis with the Klan, and
then the thunderstorms in Cincinnati-and, well, it was just one of those
moments when you don't care about anything else or what comes about as a result
of your actions…and we sort of just, well, got carried away with
ourselves."
Anna had been
clinging to every single syllable I'd uttered as if it were the words of some
Biblical prophet. "Wow," she remarked, still wide-eyed. "Was it
just that one time?"
I bit my lip to
keep from laughing, but the giggles got the better of me. "No," I
laughed, shaking my head and grinning.
"So, it
wasn't just that one time out of pure unadulterated lust, then," she remarked.
"My god…is he…is he in love with you?"
I opened my mouth
to reply, but I was eerily void of words.
"Laurie?"
I stared at the
lamp in the corner of the room, suddenly overwhelmed with a flood of thoughts.
Well, he says he does…but…what in God's name am I going to do in five days when
the tour is all over with? What is he going to do if he actually does love me
as much as he says he does? Hasn't he thought about that? Or maybe…maybe he
thinks this is just a fling for him. What if he'd been just leading me on all
that time with the tears and the laughter and every little romantic scene we'd
had together?
"Laurie?"
Anna repeated again. "Are you okay?"
"I'm
fine," I said flatly, wanting nothing more than to run out of that room
and get away from face-to-face confrontation with her at that point. "We'd
better get back downstairs…they're going to be…looking for us…"
Anna shrugged as
I hurried back down the stairs to where Paul was standing at the front door,
greeting yet another guest. I stood right behind him until Paul finally took
notice that I was there and said, "Ladies, come here and I'll introduce
you."
I gave him a
quick smile, bringing Anna with me as I made my way over to Paul, who was
standing there with a man, his wife, and their small son.
"Laurie,
Anna, this is Derek Taylor, his wife Joan, and their son Derek Jr.," Paul
said. "This is Anna, and this is Laurie Donaldson; she's a very good
friend of ours from Chicago."
"Isn't her
father the one that let you stay at their house?" Derek said.
Paul nodded.
"Yeah, the whole lot of us were snowed in at her home for a couple of
days, too," he explained as Derek's son, probably about two years old,
started running around the living room, both screaming and laughing at the same
time.
Derek turned to
look at the child and said, "Now, Derry, be careful! And mind your
manners!"
The kid stopped
in his tracks for a moment, then began snickering again and ran straight at us,
dodging his father's arms and hid behind Paul's legs. Paul turned around and grabbed
at Derry's shirt sleeve, but the tot was too quick for him.
"You'd
better watch out, Derry, or I'll make you go headfirst into the swimming pool
out back!" Paul laughed.
"Don't
encourage him, Paul," Derek commented. "He's wound up enough as it is."
Derry kept
running around and screeching despite his father's warnings and his mother's
constant repetition of "Derry, come here now" until Derek finally
shouted "Come here right now! What's gotten into you?"
Paul smiled,
signaling us to be quiet as he tiptoed right behind the approaching Derry. With
one swift leap, he grabbed the kid around the waist and slung him upside-down
over his shoulder.
"Well, now
you've done it-you're going in the pool!" Paul laughed, marching him
towards the patio doors just across the room from us. All of us followed after
him as Derry both screamed and giggled, "Eeeek! No! No! No!"
I couldn't help
but smile as I watched Paul get ready to toss Derry into the pool. "O-kay!
One…two…three!" he cried, but on the third count, he spun the tot back
around and set him on the ground. "Listen, lad, you'd better play it cool
or your dad's gonna really throw you in, okay?"
Derry ran off
again, quiet this time. You know, you wouldn't think that Paul was so good with
kids when you first looked at him-even annoying bratty ones-especially
considering he could get just so damn moody at times…but there he was, goofing
off and having as much fun as the kid was. After seeing how John felt about
fatherhood on the plane the previous night, I'd expected the rest of the group
to hold similar sentiments… but apparently I was mistaken. Paul was going to
make a wonderful father someday… not too soon, though, mind you!
John had come out
of the game room and was watching the scene with us. He had a blank yet
somewhat puzzled stare on his face, almost like he was listening to someone
lecture to him about calculus in Mandarin Chinese. I watched him for a moment,
sadly aware that he had probably never had a chance to play with his son like
that…or spend any other quality time with his kid, for that matter. I mean,
there was a little kid in front of him, probably about the same age as his own
son, and he had no idea how to respond!
We all made our
way outside to enjoy the afternoon sunshine and sat down at the picnic table
near the pool, and Paul eventually joined us after he'd chased Derry around the
pool a few times. Derry crawled into his mother's lap and leaned against her
arms, contentedly tired. Joan smiled, stroking her son's light brown hair
gently. "Perhaps he will take a nap now," she commented, holding her
son with one arm around him. "I could certainly use one."
"Perhaps you
should take one," Derek said. "It's not good for you to be getting so
worn out in your condition, Jo."
"Are you
expecting another one?" Paul asked.
"Yes,"
Joan said. "This one makes four."
"Is that
right?" Paul asked. "Well, congratulations… how old are the other two
now?"
"Well,
Michael is six, and Shelley will be five in October," she replied, rocking
Derry back and forth slowly. The little boy was slowly closing his eyes and
nodding off to sleep. "And this next one is due in January."
"What do you
think, Laur?" Paul said, winking at me. "Want four of your own?"
I laughed.
"Not yet-I don't think I could handle one right now," I said, giving
him a look.
After about five
more minutes of idle so-what-have-you-been-up-to gab, Joan said, "Paul,
dear, do you know if there's somewhere I can set this little lad down for a nap
where he won't be a bother?"
"You could
use any of the bedrooms upstairs," he said. "Laurie, could you show
her where to go?"
I nodded, getting
up from the table. "I'll be right back, Ann," I said to Anna, and she
nodded, trying to keep up with the conversation.
Joan walked
behind me into the house, carrying Derry in her arms. I led her upstairs to my
bedroom-I didn't want any of the others to burst into their rooms and wake up
the poor little kid-and opened the door for Joan.
Joan set Derry
down on the bed and covered him with the spare blanket that was hanging over
the back of the chair in the corner of the room. "Thank you, Laurie,"
she said quietly, sitting on the edge of the bed and stroking her son's hair to
soothe him.
"You're
welcome," I said.
Joan sighed after
a moment, rubbing her lower back. "Oooh…I'll be glad when these nine
months are over with again," she said, closing her eyes. "This isn't
easy to do four times…"
"Well, good
luck," I said, smiling. I sat down in the chair she'd taken the blanket
from.
"So…tell me,
Miss Laurie, what's the deal with you and Paul?" she asked quietly.
"W-what?"
"You know
what I mean. It's not that hard to tell that there's something going between
you and him," she said.
"Well, yeah,
we're sort of going together," I admitted, then resolved to tell her no
more details than that-no need for the whole world to know that Paul and I were
lovers!
"We've been
trying to keep it quiet…I guess we're just not very good at it."
"Well, I
think it's wonderful," Joan smiled. "Even just now, seeing him for
ten minutes or so, I can just tell he seems so…changed."
"Really?"
I squeaked. "How so?"
Joan sighed,
getting up from the bed and pulling the drapes closed enough so there was just
enough light to see by. "It's hard to say. I've just never seen him like
this, not even when he was dating Jane Asher… Whatever did happen with
her?"
"According
to what he told me, he and her got into a battle just before he left for the
tour and they haven't spoken since he left England," I said. "I don't
know all the details."
"Well,
whatever happened, it's for the better," Joan said. "Paul the family
man…though he always has been very good with children. He and John's son Julian
have such fun when they get together, which isn't very often…Well, it won't be
much longer for Paul; he's already twenty-four years old. He'll be thinking
about a family of his own soon…"
Man, why did
everyone have to get onto the topic of Paul having a family? I wished they'd
all just shut up about it-I did not need a stroke of bad luck and actually have
something like that come true immediately, if you get my drift! But I just
simply nodded and said, "I suppose so…"
"Well, just
remember that it's not the easiest thing in the world to be involved with a
Beatle," Joan said. "It can get quite dangerous at times; why, the
others' girlfriends-"
"I
know," I interrupted. "We almost had a bit of a crisis on the flight
to Seattle; someone mistook me for Jane Asher-god knows how-and there was a
whole big rumor going around that he was marrying her that day."
"Well,
that's highly unlikely," Joan laughed.
At that point I
wanted to get back downstairs; poor Anna was probably feeling very abandoned
downstairs with a bunch of strangers! "Well, if you'll excuse me," I
said, getting up from my chair.
"Oh, of
course," Joan said, turning her attention back to her son.
I closed the
bedroom door behind me slowly and hurried back downstairs. I felt bad for
ditching Anna like that-she was my guest, after all, not theirs, and there was
no reason for them to entertain her. She'll probably be mad at me for weeks for
leaving her alone, I thought as I slid the glass doors open and walked out to
the patio. Much to my surprise, Anna wasn't at the picnic table with the
others. Brian had joined them, however, and had taken her place.
"Where'd
Anna go?" I asked Paul as I approached the table.
"She went
into the game room," he replied. "I think she was going to challenge
them to a game of table tennis."
I smiled.
"Uh-oh; they're in trouble now! Anna was the town champ in the all-ages
ping-pong intramurals they did at the Pine Lake Recreation Center in 1956, and
she hasn't lost any zing."
We chatted on for
about another couple of hours or so at the table. I learned just who the hell
Derek Taylor was-up until that point, I had no idea how he was involved with
the Beatles! He had been Brian's personal assistant as well as the press
officer for the Beatles during 1964. However, he and Brian had a bit of a falling-out
about something, and Derek moved with his family to the U.S. I also discovered
that he was now handling publicity for some other big-name groups-the Beach
Boys, the Mamas and the Papas, and the Byrds. I couldn't help but be impressed.
Just as it was
getting to the point where the sunlight had all but disappeared from the
backyard, Neil poked his head out the patio door and announced that it was time
for dinner. The kitchen help had made a wonderful dinner of roast beef,
potatoes, broccoli, and cake for dessert; I ate until I just about burst! Anna
barely ate anything; she was much more interested in the goings-on at the
dinner table. George and David Crosby were going to head out for a drive to
visit a few acquaintances, and Anna just about fell out of her chair when
George asked her if she'd like to go with them for a while. He promised that
he'd drive her back to her grandmother's house later on or arrange a pickup
time or whatever Anna wanted to do.
"Oh, I'd
love to!" she squeaked, giddy with the fact that her favorite Beatle had
asked her to do anything!
Paul and John had
decided to go visit the Taylor home, which was not too far from the house we
were all staying in, and Paul invited me with as everyone was abandoning the
dinner table following the meal.
"What are we
going to do there?" I asked.
"Well,
Derek's inviting the Beach Boys over," he said. "We won't be there
all night, of course, just for a while, just to socialize for a bit."
Wow; now I'd be
meeting the Beach Boys?! What a night-all these famous people coming and going!
The Beach Boys had probably been my number-one favorite group before the
Beatles came along, though I didn't really have any crushes on any of them.
Most of the guys I'd had crushes on had been around during my junior-high and
high school days-starting with Elvis Presley when I was twelve. By the time I
was fifteen, I could've died to meet Frankie Avalon or Fabian; I would be glued
to the television set whenever they were on American Bandstand or the Ed
Sullivan Show. After that, there really wasn't anyone that I fell hard for
through the next four years or so, until the Beatles hit the scene. It was a
little strange, a freshman in college getting such a big crush on the guys-but
I couldn't help it. Hell, my mother liked Frank Sinatra a whole lot up until
the time she and my dad got married in '44… and she was in her early twenties
at that point, so I suppose eighteen years old wasn't too bad for one last
teenage crush before college life set in.
George and David
were leaving almost immediately for their drive around town, so I had to say
goodbye to Anna in a hurry. We hugged each other after she'd found her purse
and jacket and waited by the front door for her two companions for the evening.
"Well, I
guess this is ta-ta for a while," I said.
"Thank you
so much for pulling some strings so I could come over today, Laurie," Anna
said. "I'll remember today forever."
"And the
night is still young," I remarked. "Who knows what kind of fun
adventures you're going to have tonight?"
She grinned.
"Well, probably not as much fun as you or Paul have been having at
night…"
I rolled my eyes.
"You know, you are just as bad as Cheryl," I muttered.
"God…"
"So…when
will I see you again at home?"
"I don't
know; when are you going home?"
"We're
leaving on the red-eye flight home on Sunday night," Anna said, "so
I'll probably want to catch up on my sleep on Monday. Any time after that is
fine, though; I'll have to start getting ready for school again."
"Senior
year," I remarked, smiling. "I can't believe we're almost through
with college."
"Tell me
about it-my dad's checkbook can recover now," she joked. "When are
you due back in Pine Lake?"
"Sometime on
Tuesday," I said. "Their last show is Monday night in San Francisco,
and they're going to spend the night here and leave in the morning."
"O-kay,"
she remarked, watching as David collected the keys to his silver Porsche
waiting in the driveway. "Are we leaving, George?"
George nodded,
and Anna pulled her purse strap over her shoulder. "Well, I'll be seeing
you soon, Laurie," she smiled.
I grinned.
"Of course; have a nice vacation, Anna."
"Bye-bye,"
she said, waving behind her as she followed her two companions outside to the
car. I closed the door after them, then retreated to the living room, where
John and Paul were messing with those darn songs again.
"Don't you
two have anything better to do than work on those things?" I laughed.
"You're supposed to be enjoying a break."
"Our breaks
are the only time we have to work on stuff," Paul remarked, tuning his
guitar. "It isn't easy writing stuff while you're on tour or doing
promotions."
I sat on the
couch and watched them for a little while. Neither of them were in an avid
writing mood; Paul spent more time tuning his guitar than writing any of the
songs that night. At last, he set the guitar down and said, "We'd better
get going, John."
John nodded, and
they cleaned up their mess before we headed out into the cool darkness of Los
Angeles courtesy of the Cadillacs Brian had rented out for us. Paul nominated
himself as driver, to which John had no objections, so I slid next to Paul in
the front seat and John stretched out in the back seat. He rolled down both
windows on either side of him and just let the wind blow against his face as
Paul sped down the curvy roads of the area we were in.
Well, now, I
thought. This is something new-driving with a Beatle…even though he's going to
get us killed if he doesn't slow down a little bit more! After sliding into the
door as he pulled a sharp turn, I'd just about had it.
"Paul, would
you mind slowing down from ninety-million miles an hour to something a little
closer to the limit?" I shouted, hanging onto the door for balance.
"I think my parents want me home in one piece."
"Listen,
luv, I know what I'm doing," he said.
"My arse you
know what you're doing," John scoffed. "That's how you know so damn
much about driving-that's how you got your license revoked for a year."
"Uh-oh,"
I laughed. "Now, how did that happen, Mr. Perfect?"
"Ah, they
caught me for speeding three times in twelve months and took me licence
away," Paul said, lighting up a cigarette as we stopped at a stop sign. He
replaced the cigarette lighter in the dashboard, took a drag, then said in a
puff of smoke, "It was three years ago-I've been licenced since
then."
"I should
hope so," I muttered as he pushed the accelerator and the car gained speed
smoothly again. We drove for about another ten minutes before arriving at the
Taylor home, a house very much in the same design style as the one we were
staying at. Joan welcomed us at the door, and Derek was right behind her.
The rest of the
visit was pretty cool-within a minute of walking in the doors I met Brian and
Carl Wilson from the Beach Boys. They were sitting in Derek's living room on
the couch near the windows drinking Cokes. Honestly, if it had been three years
earlier, I would've been begging for autographs the moment I walked in the
door, but I played it cool now-you kind of had to if you wanted to hang out
with the Beatles! Derek introduced everyone to everyone else in the party, and
they were chatting away within a few minutes-nothing highly in-depth, just sort
of shy, polite conversation.
Joan came into
the room to offer anyone else some drinks, and just then the cry of,
"Mommy!" came from the kitchen. She rolled her eyes and said,
"I'll be there in a minute, dears!"
"Do you need
any help in the kitchen, Joan?" I asked, a little bored with the general
conversations going on in the room.
"It would be
a tremendous help," Joan said tiredly, nodding. "I have three little
ones in there that should be on their way to bed…whether or not they're going
to do it is another question…"
I left Paul and
the others in the living room and followed Joan into the back of the house.
That house had the biggest kitchen I've ever seen-lots of counter space and
cabinets at floor-level and on the walls, all done in Southwest motif. There
was a brand-new double-doored refridgerator in the corner, as well as a
matching six-burner stove across the room. Joan's three children were seated at
the round oak table-Derry was in a high chair-and all of them were eating their
chocolate ice cream desserts. They were already dressed in their pajamas for
bedtime.
"Mom! Derry
won't stop dropping his spoon!" Shelley protested, pointing at her little
brother with her spoon. Derry was smiling mischeviously, busily licking every
bit of chocolate flavoring off the spoon in his hand after scooping up a big
chunk of ice cream from his dish.
"Derry,
you're going straight to bed after you're done with that spoonful," Joan
said, taking the halfway-empty bowl from him. She let him finish his last
spoonful before taking the spoon, wiping his face with his bib, and scooped him
out of his high chair. "You're done, little lad," she said, heading
up the staircase in the corner of the room to the second floor. I guess Derry
didn't want to go to bed just yet, for I could hear him screeching all the way
up the stairs until a door closed and I assumed Joan had put him in his room.
Shelley rolled
her eyes, then turned to me. "Derry never wants to go to bed," she
commented in a delicate mix of a British and American accent before taking a
mouthful of ice cream.
"I'll
bet," I commented. "I have a little sister, and she always used to
fight my mother when she had to go to bed."
Michael, the
eldest child, had finished his ice cream and was heading for the sink to drop
his dish into. He walked towards the table, and, instead of taking his seat in
the same spot again, he stood right next to me and was examining my right hand.
"That's a cool ring," he commented, taking my hand and getting a
closer look at my class ring from Rosary. It really was a nice model-genuine
gold with a blue stone in the center-sort of the scaled-down version of a guy's
class ring.
"Thanks,"
I said, pulling it off my finger and handing it to him. "You can look at
it if you want."
Shelley was
curious to see the ring as well; she quickly finished the rest of her ice cream
and deposited the bowl in the sink as well, then raced back over to her
brother's side. "Lemme see, too," she said, and Michael handed her
the ring.
Joan came back
downstairs just then. "Okay, you two-upstairs right now," she said as
Shelley handed the ring back to me. "Brush your teeth and get straight
into bed."
"Why can't
we go sit with Daddy's visitors?" Shelley asked, slowly trudging for the
staircase. "They always come here too late and we have to go to bed."
"You two
have Betty Ann's birthday party tomorrow, remember?" Joan said, wiping up
the mess that Derry had made on the high chair tray. "Now, it's already
well past nine-thirty, so get going."
"Can we have
a story?" Michael asked. He had a bit more of a British accent than his
younger sister.
"Not
tonight; by the time I get upstairs, it'll be too late," Joan said.
"Um, I could
read to them," I offered, getting up out of my chair.
"Oh, Laurie,
you don't have to," Joan said, shaking her head. "I don't expect you
to do that-you're a guest."
"Really, I
don't mind," I said. "I don't mind helping out; you've got your hands
full."
Joan thought it
over for a moment before jumping at the idea of having even twenty minutes of
quiet to herself. "Okay…Laurie will read to you two-"
"All
right!" Michael cheered, and Shelley grinned.
"But then
that's it-right to sleep!" Joan said, rinsing off her rag in the sink.
"Laurie, their books are in Michael's bookcase in his room."
"Okay,"
I said, following the kids up the narrow staircase to the second floor. There
were four bedrooms upstairs-really nice, spacious ones-each with its own
private bathroom. Must be nice, I thought as Michael flipped on the light in
his room and ran over to his bookcase to search for a title.
"So…when
your mom has the baby, whose room is the baby going to have to share
with?" I asked as Michael reached for a book on the top shelf.
"Derry's!"
both of them answered quickly, and Shelley added, "No more babies breaking
my stuff! Derry broke my Barbie doll!"
Michael brought
me three books from the shelf: Where the Wild Things Are, Penny the Parrot, and
a book with a collection of fairy tales. "Read the monster one!" he
said, leaping onto his bed and sprawling out onto his stomach. Shelley sat next
to him, swinging her feet over the edge of the bed.
I opened Where
the Wild Things Are and started reading to the kids, keeping half my attention
on them and half my attention on the sounds coming from downstairs. Someone
downstairs had turned on the radio and was listening to a station with some pop
music playing.
I read through
the parrot book next, then two of the fairy tales in the thick book-Sleeping
Beauty and Jack and the Beanstalk. At that point I was yawning myself, and
Shelley's eyes were drooping tiredly.
"I think
we'd better end it now," I said, closing the book after reaching the last
page of Sleeping Beauty.
"Oh-h-h,"
Michael groaned, turning himself around and making himself comfortable on his
pillow before kicking his slippers off. "It's not fair…I'm not even
tired!"
"Well, the
sooner you go to sleep, the sooner it'll be morning, and then you can get up
and play," I said, replacing the three books on the shelf where Michael
had pulled them from. "Come on, Shelley; let's go to bed."
Michael pulled
his feet underneath the covers and said, "Goodnight, Laurie," as I
shut the light off.
"Do you
leave your door open or closed?" I asked him before leaving the room;
Shelley was already racing down the hall to her room closest to the stairs.
"Closed-it's
noisy down there," Michael said, yawning.
I nodded, closing
the door behind me. Shelley was climbing into her bed when I reached her room.
I couldn't help but notice that she had a copy of the Beatles' Yesterday,
Today, and Tomorrow next to her little Fisher-Price record player on her
bookshelf.
"Do you
listen to the Beatles?" I asked as she pulled her quilt over herself and
laid down.
"Yeah-and I
love Paul!" she said, grinning. "I'm gonna marry him someday!"
I couldn't help
but laugh at her remarks. "Oh, really?" I said, hiding my amusement
as best I could.
"Yes; he's
my boyfriend and I love him," she chattered, toying with her rag doll's
red hair as she closed her eyes. "My friend Nina loves him too-Nina
babysits for me and Michael."
"Oh," I
said. "How old is Nina?"
"Fifteen,"
Shelley answered, yawning. "She wants to marry him too."
Oh, if only this
little girl knew that her idol was sitting downstairs in the living room! She'd
never go to sleep that night!
"Well, I'm
sure you two will be very happy together," I said. "When are you
going to marry him?"
"When I'm
five. Then I'll be a big girl and I can get married and drive a car."
"Don't you
have to go to school first?" I asked her.
"I went to
school last year," she said. "I don't want to go no more-icky Ben
Robbins makes fun of me."
"He
does?"
"Yeah, and
he pushed me into the sandbox at school," she said, pouting. "I'm not
going there anymore-I'm gonna marry Paul and then he's going to go beat up Ben
and all the other bad guys at school just like in Help!"
I had to bite my
lip from giggling. Four-year-olds are so funny! It's funny to see how they
think!
"Did you
ever get to meet Paul?" I said.
"No…but he's
my boyfriend; I said so!" Shelley protested, getting up out of bed and
heading for the door.
"Where are
you going?" I asked her as she turned the doorknob.
"Drink of
water," she replied, heading into the hallway. I followed her just in case
she was going to try sneaking downstairs or something-four-years-old can be
tricky if they want to!
Just then, who
should be coming up the stairs from the living room end of the house but
Shelley's boyfriend himself! "Oh, hello, Laurie," he said. "I
was wonderin' where you'd gone off to."
Shelley stopped
dead in her tracks, then dashed behind me and hid behind my legs, very shy all
of a sudden. She peered out from behind me just a little bit with a funny look
on her face.
"I was
reading to the kids," I explained, turning my head and looking at Shelley.
"Shelley, I thought you said he was your boyfriend."
Shelley looked up
at me, then again at Paul, then buried her face in the side of my skirt.
"Tell him to go away," she said. "He's not my boyfriend no
more!"
Paul laughed.
"Apparently she doesn't remember me at all," he commented. "The
last time I saw her she was about two years old."
"Oh, but,
Paul!" I laughed. "She said she's going to marry you!"
"Oh, she
did, did she?" he said, amused by the whole thing. He kneeled down next to
me and tapped Shelley's shoulder. "Come 'ead, luv; I don't bite."
Shelley turned
her head and looked at him with one eye, then shyed away again.
"I'll tell
you what," Paul said to her. "I won't give away your secret if you
don't want me to."
She turned to
face him and said, "Will you read me a story so I can go to bed?"
"No,
no," I said. "I just read you and your brother four of them, and your
mother wants you to go to sleep now."
Shelley stamped
her slippered foot and pouted, crossing her arms. "No!"
"How about a
song before you go to sleep?" Paul offered.
You should have
seen Shelley's face light up when she heard that! "Yeah! Yeah!" she
cried, running back to her room and leaping into bed.
"All
right," Paul said once we both got back to her room. "What song would
you like to hear, Shelley?"
Shelley thought
for a minute. Well, I hope she doesn't pick a screamer like "Long Tall
Sally" or "I'm Down", I thought.
"I
know!" she said, grinning. "I know! I got one!"
"Which
one?" I asked her. It was going to be interesting to see which Beatles
song she'd pick.
"The song
from Sleeping Beauty!" she said, grinning. Apparently I'd gotten her onto
a Sleeping Beauty kick by reading her that fairy tale.
Paul frowned.
"I'm sorry; I don't know that one, luv."
"Yeah, you
do," Shelley protested. "It goes, 'I know you an' walked with you
once uponna dream-'"
Paul shook his
head. "Sorry, Shelley; I can't sing that one," he apologized.
"Boy, are
you in trouble now, Paul!" I laughed. "You don't know how the song
goes!"
"What about
'Five Little Monkeys'?" Shelley asked.
"I don't
know that-" Paul started to say, but I poked him in the side and said,
"Oh, I know that one; I can teach it to him."
Paul turned to
me. "Oh, really? Well, this is the first time I get to see the legendary
Lauren Ashley Donaldson in concert…go ahead, chickie."
I cleared my
throat, then held up my hand with my five fingers stretched out. "It's not
really much of a song; it's more like a chant…okay; here goes…Five lit-tle
monk-eys jump-in' on the bed….one fell off and bumped his head…Ma-ma called the
doc-tor and the doc-tor said…'No more mon-keys jump-in on the bed!'…and then
you use four fingers, see…"
Paul nodded.
"Okay..here goes," he said, stretching out four fingers and folding
his thumb against his palm. "Four lit-tle monkeys jump-in' on the
bed…"
I had to keep my
hand firmly pressed over my mouth and even had to turn away a few times as Paul
sang the song to Shelley to keep from bursting out laughing! Of all the oddly
surreal moments I'd seen, this had to be the wackiest-Paul singing nursery
rhymes to a four-year-old! Shelley was loving every minute of it, though; she
even started singing along with him on the third verse.
When Paul reached
the end of the song, I applauded the both of them. "Wonderful job,
Shelley," I said. "You're a great singer!"
"Thank
you," she said, crawling beneath her quilt again, quite content with her
brief encounter with Paul. "Okay…I'm tired now; I want to go to bed."
"Okay,
luv," Paul said, tucking the comforter around her before he left her
bedside. "Goodnight, Shelley."
"'Night,
Paul; 'night, Laurie," she said before turning over and closing her eyes.
I shut off the
light and closed the door behind Paul and me as we walked back down the hallway
towards the living room stairs. "Did anyone ever tell you how really,
really great you are with kids?" I said, smiling at him.
"The little
ones are a giggle; I don't mind playing along with their games," he
replied. "Shelley's always been a sweetie…nothing like her little brother
is."
I snorted.
"Tell me about it," I said. "He'd run me into a tizzy if I ever
had to babysit for him."
We ended up
getting home around midnight that evening, courtesy of a very smushed ride in
David Crosby's silver Porsche (he had stopped by the Taylor's house after
dropping Anna off across town around eleven o'clock). It must have looked like
a circus clown act as we all practically fell out of the car when we reached
the driveway of the house on Curson Terrace. After saying goodnight to David,
we went into the house and Paul and I headed directly up to our room; John and
George stayed downstairs for a quick drink or smoke or something.
Paul changed out
of his jeans and shirt and crawled into bed, rubbing his eyes. "I can't
believe how tired I am," he remarked. "I'm usually still going strong
at midnight."
I was busy
shimmying into my old white nightgown; there was little need for the sexy pink
number, considering there was no way I would fool around with Paul if we didn't
have any protection-the box of our provisions was empty. "It's those
kids-they wore you out!" I remarked, pulling my ring off my finger and
setting it right on top of my vanity case like I always did. "And you said
you wanted to be a teacher…no energy level, mister…Hey, what's going on for
tomorrow?"
Paul frowned for
a moment, thinking, then said, "Nothing that I can think of…last day off
of the tour…we'll just see what's going on…okay?"
"Okay,"
I replied, shutting off the light and crawling into bed next to him. Actually,
I was on the tired side, too, and dozed off within twenty minutes of hitting
the pillow, dreamily thinking about things to do on the last day off of the
tour.
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